"Single-minded to the point of recklessness."

Got so much to say. Got so much things rushing in my mind. But somehow, I can't let it all out. Hmm. I need to breathe and think for a while. That might help retain my logic.

One more thing:

Why do people undermine my capability of understanding and feeling the complexities of life?  I'm as good as anybody, aren't I?

Happy 14th Birthday Rachel Torres!

I had an awesome time with you earlier even though it was only the three of us. I know this day should've been better. I know May and Kim and everybody else should've been there. But everybody is coming on your post-birthday party on the 31st right? Well. Except May and Kim. Gahd Rae, I know this is really difficult right now. It is for all of us. But remember that I (together with everybody else: Evita, Ava, Renee, Vanny, Ashley, Shari and Furby) will ALWAYS have your back. No matter freakin what. I give you all my love.

and how can I ever forget betyang. happy 15th birthday yvette suan! OMG. you're 15! Love you still and I freakin miss you.

& I thought friendship wasn't about being perfect..

EDIT!

What the heck is wrong with my eye. My left eye. There's something wrong with it and it's annoying me. It has been red since yesterday and I want the reddy-ness to go away NOW! It's not pink eye or sore eyes or anything. `Kay, gotta run.  

Goodbyes are sad but needed.

We had a farewell/despidida party for the Cordero family last night. It was awesome--at least, the laughing, singing, dancing, eating part. Vanessa Hope Marcial and Veronica Faith Marcial are the most adorable, witty and hella fun children ever, I tell ya! Van-Van joined the Little Ms. Philippines- Canada pageant. She didn't win but I swear, she was the most charming of them all. You should hear the two of them sing. I should post the videos as soon as I figure how to work all this HTML stuff @ YouTube. The goodbyes were awful though. Of course they were awful. I'll miss Gela and her family.

On other news, holy! Kim and May are turning their backs on Rachel. Gosh, they cause too much drama! Gahhh. I feel so bad for Rae. Kim and May are mad at her for some stupid mother effin unknown reason and they wouldn't even tell her why they're mad at her. So much unnecessary drama! Why can't everyone get along and set their mother effin opinions aside. Besides, that's what friends are for, right? May, you barely know Kim, Marc and Tonee...and now, you're taking their side instead of Rachel's? And please let me remind you that she's your best friend, dammit. Think properly! You haven't even met Marc and just because he's guy doesn't give you enough reason to call Rachel a bitch, a whore, a slut and every other word there is in your mother effin vocabulary.

OMG OMG. My grandma has a boyfriend (My grandad died ages ago, so she's not cheating or anything)

anddd...HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! We bought her a diamond necklace. Whoa, she was overjoyed.

Saturday rendezvous @ Square One with John, Ava, and Rachel hopefully.

You wanna know who your TRUE FRIENDS are? Screw up and look who's still behind your back loving you despite your imperfections.

Tell me, how can you throw a whole friendship out the window overnight?

Oh, fun fun times!

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! lol, Ava..don't even comment that i'm such a prep for saying OMG so much. Well, i'm just so happy because we chilled with John today. Gosh, he is the sweetest. Isn't he Avz? You have to agree with me on this. We (Ava, May, Jim and I) arrived at the Bubble Tease @ Square One Mall before John did. We waited for about a good 20 minutes before he finally came. OMG (don't worry, I'll stop saying OMG when I'm done with this post), it was so awkward at first, especially @ the food court. what the heck? We played truth and dare. hahah! And after that, the three of them ditched us so that we could "supposedly" have our alone time together. Oh, wow..corny. But it the alone time together was awesome. And after that we went to the fountains near the city centre. We got wet! And after, we went to May's place and sang karaoke! haha. That was definitely fun. But I had to leave early so..yeah. I was so bummed that I had to leave them (especially John).

Remember this Avz?

I love it when you smile.

-John Harold France

I miss him already.